Doesn’t know how to cheer me up.

November 23, 2010 xyza13

So, instead, I’ll just cheer myself up on my own. Anyway, all I’ve got is myself so I can’t really depend on others to make me happy when I’m a little bit down.

Like, when I feel tears would come out, I would bite my teeth and grind them just for my eyes to control it. Did it work? No. I still ended up crying. Then, afterwards, I would force out a smile on this lips just to let myself know that “it’s okay, it’ll be over, it’ll be back to normal the next time you blink,” I knew I was going to end up happy again.

When times like this is over, I knew there would still be hundreds of even thousands ahead of it. It was not completely over. Of course, I wasn’t straining myself to it. I will just think of my happy, comfortable place and locate every single stuff in it on my mind.